For quite some time I have been debating back and forth whether I should cancel this blog. Originally when I started this blog it was as a journal for my family since I am horrible at writing in journals. This seemed an easier way to record our families story. But then I would become obsessed with how many comments I got and if people were really reading my blog (Am I sharing too much - I hope I am not the only one who really cares about that because that would be quite embarrassing!)
When Erin suggested I read the Neinei diaries, I was so touched. That was a blog that was inspirational, that her family could treasure for years to come. So I have changed the idea of our family blog - we'll see how long it lasts.
Recently in General Conference Elder Eyering gave an inspirational talk that was so motivating to me at the time, but to be honest, have forgotten about since. When thinking about either canceling the blog, or somehow making it more motivating his word popped into my mind and I have not been able to stop thinking about them since.
"When our children were very small, I started to write down a few things about what happened every day. Let me tell you how that got started. I came home late from a Church assignment. It was after dark. My father-in-law, who lived near us, surprised me as I walked toward the front door of my house. He was carrying a load of pipes over his shoulder, walking very fast and dressed in his work clothes. I knew that he had been building a system to pump water from a stream below us up to our property.
He smiled, spoke softly, and then rushed past me into the darkness to go on with his work. I took a few steps toward the house, thinking of what he was doing for us, and just as I got to the door, I heard in my mind—not in my own voice—these words: “I’m not giving you these experiences for yourself. Write them down.”
I went inside. I didn’t go to bed. Although I was tired, I took out some paper and began to write. And as I did, I understood the message I had heard in my mind. I was supposed to record for my children to read, someday in the future, how I had seen the hand of God blessing our family. Grandpa didn’t have to do what he was doing for us. He could have had someone else do it or not have done it at all. But he was serving us, his family, in the way covenant disciples of Jesus Christ always do. I knew that was true. And so I wrote it down, so that my children could have the memory someday when they would need it."
So that's my new goal with this blog - to truly make it a family journal, something that when I print out will make a difference in their lives as they read it. I think the small thing are the things that change us. But unfortunately those are the things that we forget so quickly. So my goal is to think of these words every night and blog about those things that the Lord has done to intervene in out lives, the ways he has touched us and blessed us. Like I said - we'll see how long it lasts; hopefully is can become a habit.
Its amazing that as we start to look for this, life becomes better. We see the things that make our life happy, the things that we often rush over as we are trying to get to the 'next big event'. We recently went camping, and with these thought in my head that I have just expressed I saw things I had never seen, things that were there that I usually just skim by. Like watching my little sister show her sweet two year old daughter how to roast a marshmallow, and the excitement in my sisters face as she explained and showed. So sweet.
You may or may not (probably the latter) noticed that I took off the option to make a comment. This isn't because I don't love to hear everyones comments but because I need to write for us and not worry about if I ma interesting to anyone else or if anyone is following this blog. Then, I won't have a clue if no ones reading it!
Anyway - life is great, I want to remember those great moments.